Saturday, November 13, 2010
went to esther's 16th bbq birthday party.
got hj , sheng , cy , xiwen , yx , dory , grace , fiona , ischelle , jean , celine .
i seriously no mood , force myself to eat , told myself i can let go .
but once he came , my heart beat damn fast -.- FUCK LA.
then i noticed during the whole gathering , we took a few glances at each other .
o.o , nvm . he won't will be talking to me anyway , i lost all contacts ,
some i didn't want now is auto deleted (: .
i got like 300+ contacts , nabey stupid itunes , sync my things gone . ccb .
for a while during gathering , just walked in the rain , thought over things .
why i like such a guy ? why is he this kind of person ? why i can't forget him ?
why i still so in loveeeeeeeeee with him . why why why ? FUCK LA .
i don't want to let anybody worry for me .
so i act happy , smile and eat the cake and food . ):
but deep inside , im full of questions , and i need answers from him !
doesn't mean that night we kissed , hugged .
means thats the end of our friendship , if we could we would take a step further .
fucking jealous when i see couple kiss & hug infront of me , feel like taping their mouth x: .
hais , when will u tell me the answer soon ? don't keep me waiting ,
i got a feeling , you still like me , you just don't know how to say .
i'm just a phone call away .
shuo le zai jian , zai ye jian bu dao ~~~~~~~